You gotta play to win!

January 17, 2011

I am having some trouble deciding on a big decision in my life. and I need some help.

Everyday when I am waiting for the train in the morning, I see the powerball jackpot in glowing red numbers and I briefly think about how awesome it would be to win that money.  Then (and only then) reality hits as I realize I don’t even know how to play the lottery.

I mean…do you play the same numbers everyday? Or pick random numbers? Something about the random draw just gives me the heeby jeebies. Rigged machines! Big brother conspiracy or something ridiculous like that.

Plus, what would L say if I started coming home with dozens of losing (because I never win anything) lotto tickets? I already have a terrible habit with energy drinks! She would lose her everloving mind if I wasted 20 bucks a week on tickets. My face hurts just thinking about it.

Actually how much is the lotto anyways? I don’t even know. Then there is also the thinking, what if I won? Who do I have an obligation to help out? Friends ? family? Cousins? Aunts? Uncles? Distant friends or just really close friends? Hang out buddies or just like friends worth buying their eternal friendship?

They say peoples lives get ruined from winning the lotto. Hard to believe honestly.

If I win, I just want a beach house, fast car, no debt, trust funds for the little guys-to-be and a gated community for us to wave to our also rich neighbors. Mom, my nephews, niece and L can get the rest of the money.

Truthfully, if I really hit the lotto, this blog will self destruct and I will not be held to anything I have said. In fact, I may disappear. And you may or may not get a check in the mail with a note that reads “Thanks…G“. The amout will dictate how thankful I really am.

With that said, I am going to play the lottery this weekend.


New job, old G

October 28, 2010

A couple weeks ago I applied for and received a job promotion. I have been at my job for about three years and have moved up pretty quickly considering I have a degree in a completely different field. 

I think my attitude is a huge reason why I am in the spot that I am in and why I have been given the opportunities that I have been given.  Managers always look for different things in an individual candidate.  I have never hired anyone so I am really just talking out of my behind, but still.  You should listen to me!

My new position starts on Monday and I am pretty nervous. I think that i have a lot to live up to.  I think that I know what I want to do in my future and this is a great step to get there.  I also know that this position is a great chance for me to fail and for me to fall short.  I don’t want to fall short of course.  I want to shine!

One thing I have realized in my past though is that there will be days when you fall short.  How am I going to handle those days? I don’t know.  To say that I am nervous and slightly overwhelmed is an understatement.  The main reason I am writing this post is really for self motivation! People are all motivated by different things. My motivation is the will to not fail in any task.  Most people want to be great and that is their motivation and if they don’t see themselves in a “great” position, they consider themselves failures.  I think that is a perfect storm for frustration and dissappointment.

I have always been motivated by my fear of not meeting expectations. With this thinking, I end up aiming higher than just meeting expctations, but in the end if I fall short of where I aim, I still end up in a good position. I just never want to fail.

Basically…I made it sound like i aim to be mediocre which isn’t the case at all.  But I am babbling so my original thoughts and messages are floating off like a toddlers balloon at six flags. 

Basically…new position monday, scary times. By I am ready for it.  And I will not fail! Goodnight.